cuz of ..work...hard

yup so I'm employed at fasta pasta @ harbour town as a wait person now
and like........damn it's hardcore.

I only served complimentary breads, little side dishes but I'm like already dead and I'm not looking forward to go back there. But I'll have to on friday....I have no choice cuz nobody else wants me.

So I did a bit of cleaning up tables and serving, but like...why am I scared? Like the customers, when they ask me things that I don't really know how to deal with, I freeze and murmur. My manager's like........um yeah don't do that next time cos that could be a bit rude....yeah i know that.

and like people there are old. not like old old but around about 30ish? and I'm a teen. So i feel lonely and disregarded....I feel like if I'm messing everything up and it feels bad. I feel so little cos i have to wear this old uniform that my manager used to wear and its XXL. I also have to put the apron on but its like so old -_- and long................

i still don't know how much i'm getting paid and it feels like its going to be around $9......so i ONLY got what 27 bucks today. and i feel exhausted. great.

cuz I'm having an interview soon!

yeah~ that's right I'm having a job interview in like 5 minutes! I'm kinda scared cos I have never been in an interview before!
I hope I do well cos if I don't I'll be a loser at home. I desperately need to work! I need to earn money for myself! <33 if I get the job I'll be so happy that I would go crazy!! Haha wish me luck needmoreroom.com!

cuz of......i want to be employed!!!!

I want to work desperately... I want to earn money and save up so I could like use it in aiding for my future journey to europe <33333 but i've been getting reject mails n.n
why am i like this..... other girls in my school get employed straight away after applying for it and i'm like.......a loser...........

i literally tried everywhere from like fast food chains to like book store....bakery....etc but theyre always like... "soz"

울고 싶어라~

cuz of i was soooooooo sick yesterday

so i was super sick yesterday like i was crying because i was really sick. i think it was a summer flu some sort of thing and i even wanted to do drugs cos i couldnt bare with the pain.
my limbs felt like as if it was ripping slowly from inside out and i literally wanted to chop it off..

my mum was like oh god you're boiling and she was amazed cos i was never sick like this before... i was shivering cos it was really cold but my mum kept on wiping me with a cold towel to drop my temperature....

and today i'm kinda feeling better and i think i'm already alright but my legs are starting to hurt again and i wonder if i'll be able to walk properly....

i dont like this at all...........i hate being sick......i hate being retarded

cuz of...hi i'm back

i havent been blogging for ages and i dont know where to start like daul died as everybody know....and i was sooooo heart broken cos like she was my inspiration for like the past 2 years? and it's so hard cos like i never thought she would do that...well she kinda said that she was depressed and felt like unaccepted all the time but then it was a real shock when she actually decided to give in. i felt horrible for what she has done... i was so drawn to her because we share a lot of things in common.....

I feel alienated all the time i can't share my feelings with others cos i'm foreign everywhere and i'm korean but the korean culture's like uneasy to me. i suffered hugely from depression last year, i questioned my identity and like i wanted to kill myself because i felt hollow inside. i wanted to get away from the reality because i didnt want to give in to the thoughts of all the 'not possible' attitude but then i kinda did at the end cos my dad brainwashed me...

recently i was in the rove to become all good and then depression stroke me again and i'm acting if i'm a emo wannabe and i know i'm not old enough to comment on 'life' but it really sucks. why can't i be who i am and why does people see me differently? why is being true to oneself so hard.... why am i always prejudged and misunderstood...

my parents are like 'you're growing, that's what it is' and i guess it's true...maybe this is what all teenagers go through...conflicts and self destructive mode...and i'm just a part of this typical teenage girls thing. but when i see my friends (i call them friends cos they volunteer to sit with me but i don't know if theyre really my friends) theyre like all happy and i feel gay stuck in between all cynical and down. people like savage me cos im depressed all the time but like this is what i am and i cant change who i am can i? and i hate happy people too. i dont know exactly why but i think i hate them cos theyre like all positive and like i kinda know the end of that already

well now it's summer holidays and i'm like doing this thing called wake up eat read sleep routine and i'm like depressed and i want to escape from this boredom futility.......i need to find something interesting desperately. but then everyone's in korea and i'm jealous and i'm angry because Australia sucks. I've been trying to find something interesting and good for my whole life anyway so it seems pretty pointless going I'm going to find something cool cos i epic failed for the past years

tell me what i gotta do.............

cuz I'm bak with some serious attitude

alrighty, so I've been away for quite a while
it's because I've either been too busy with IB,
or I've just let things go...

But now I'm baaaaack! ; )
it's holidays right now so I can do whateva
I feel like doing

okay these days I'm hugely into reading
watching movies and a guy called wooyoung of 2pm
i'm trying to suppress my obssession? for him
but he is really adorable and cute.

I'm going to blame it all on my sister because
she infected me by going 'omg 2pm I love them'
when I had no clue who they were. Apparently they are
huge in Korea and even people that are like booktards
and nerds are in to them...most of their fans are pretty much
businessmen (and YES they have A LOT of male fans!)
and aunty-aged :$

it's so sad how jay left though, I mean he was a bit rude
to be honest, but it wasn't THAT inappropriate
...like I use a lot of 'gay' in my life because it's just like
saying I feel uneasy?? then it got translated into a rather
'sick as homosexual'...how is he meaning 'i want to throw up
it's yuck'??? This is why I hate Koreans
they make assumptions and get totally obsessed with
the whole patriotism? while it's actually lacking self-confidence

I like Korea, but at the same time I don't like Korea
because it's full of assumptions, prejudgement, competition
and the crazy 자격지심 to japan or America
I too dislike Japan and America because they used to
bully us and totally crushed us but it's a history so we must
move on to what is like now, while aknowledging the past.

I guess no matter what, if you were raised in Korea
you'll be totally biased towards Japan.
And I am too.

Sumimasen

cuz of i am sooo bored

hi i finished all my exams (finally....jesus)
and i have nothing to do because I didn't go to school
yr 12s still have their exams to do so
lucky yr 10s we get a day off :-)

and im all by myself doing computer
and internet is soo slow not even kidding
and there's no chocolate..i was so upset in the morning

right now, goldcoast is f-ing cold !!
apparently its like 5 degrees? and that is like
unbelievable for goldcoast's weather
single digit!!! thats wowwwwww
ahhh.. so cold..

im wrapped up in my mum's bed
i turned the electric blanket on but i hate the feeling
like....i feel radiation through my body it's disgusting
but i have no choice so... ha...

im sooo bored!!!
i start talking to myself
sad reality

im not me anymore

Hi i just finished my maths exam
and i totally sucked i don't think I'm I-Ji anymore
cuz i used to be like super pro at maths
i used to like go to national maths comps
and i never thought that i'll suffer like this

....the question that i had no clue
was this weird university physics question
what is wrong with our maths teachers
why do they expect us to know some piece of crap like that
like if the wording was okay and i just didn't know i won't be this angry
the problem is that if i understood the question
(as in the comprehension... the English)
i probs could do it!!
damn:-(

i feel like as if somebody randomly popped out and
nagged me with a hammer
i can't even believe it...

if i get my marks back and i sucked
like if it says something like 'B'???
i'll be so shocked that i'll like laugh
i'll probably go home and start self promoting to my mum
going like 'this is destiny'
NOT

:-( Lets hope that i get an A!!!
optimism........

cuz of long time no post

Well here I am
finally showing some commitment to my blog
I wasn't that busy, except for my compos
exam after exam
:-(

I have been doing good
like all my grades are quite okay so far
and I have 2 exams tomoro but I'm not
studying because somehow I always
relax?? when I have exams....
I never freak out or panic like others
I know - dis donc j'ai de la chance!!! tres vraiment

also recently my dad and I have been
spending time together listening to 7080s music
and it was really good !!

Most of people nowadays
don't understand nor know about the old pops
but I think it's really important to know cuz
seriously post music is crap it has nothing in it
stupid teenage girls sing with their face and
Their voices are always processed with those
fixed pitch electronic stuff probs trying to cover their unacceptable voice

every song sounds the same and the words
Have no meaning at all trying to act cool they put
English words in it that doesn't even make sense!!

back in the days it was just audio not video
And music actually meant 'life' to the musicians
so songs that my dad and I listened to all had
philosophy in it, their soul and emotion...

there are some people who still sing like this
but..... they can never be recognized because
of all the stupid idol shits that take up their space..

this is why I let go of my childhood dream
because I'm not that good looking, because
I don't want to put myself in a shame
and I don't want to take up the opportunity for the
Real musicians that needs it.

now back to my french exam revision :-(((

Ahhhhhh

cuz .........i lack productiveness

yeh todays sunday
and im sitting here in the dine table
after my cereal

i was going to be productive for the past 2 days
and i just couldnt because i had to do some youtubing
and blogging and naver-ing and stuff....

i can make up a hundred different excuses for it
but i guess its all lame. im always so- time consuming
i lackkkk productiveness i never stay true to what i plan to do

this is like my main problem i dont prioritise stuff
like even though i didnt have anything on saturday
i didnt bother to do my english essay and some catch up on music composition
wtf yeah i hate myself im so NOT efficient

now how am i going cope in IByears? i need to get 45/45 well that my hope cuz i want to do whatever i want to do
apparently only 0.01% of IB-ians achieve 45 but its nice to have a big dream
cuz a lot of people say 'oh that wasnt as hard as i thought' afterall...

but i hate just aiming to be the top
i mean...whats the point? i aim for the future not to
like beat everyone and be proud of myself
im not like those korean kids who try so hard to be recognised
to earn reputation?? amongst their age group and parents

i try to stay cool even though 'asian= not cool'
but i'm at least cool enough to ignore that ...
not going to be a chav!!
...but some people might think i am.

oh and lllloooook at this

this is what i found on the net couple of hours ago
its the result of this poll thing with the topic 'the most regretful thing in my life'
and surprisingly from teens to 50s (women) majority of them answered
'i shouldve studied more'...

and wow am i going to think like that when i grow up??
nooooo im not going to regret myself and mourn
not to be defiled at the first place im going to study while i can
dont want to be like someone who always cherish their past
and like cry because they want to go back

im going to stand up strong for myself
so starting from now

im going to do my english essay.
ciao :-)

알수없는 너의 이야기

센티멘탈 해지는 밤에, 나는 요상한 글을 쓰곤한다
어제 썼던 글을 오늘 보고나니 웃기다.
도데체 사랑도 못해본 애가 남을 사랑할 줄도 모르는 애가
들은 건 있어서 사랑 이야기를 쓰는지.
모르겠다...... 걍 쓰잘데기 없는 단어들만 주어듣고 썼나보다


알수없는 너의 이야기

붉은 비가 내리고 촉촉히 날 감싸주는게

영 기분이 나쁘지도 않았다 난 들떠서 자꾸만 나가자고 재촉했고

넌 웃으며 차분하게 주문을 걸어 나를 다시 나락으로 인도했다

우리는 바다를 걷고 하늘을 가로지르고 또 지도도 없이 세상을 돌았다

세상은 돌았다고 너는 내게 말했고

나는 이 황홀함에 취해 고개를 끄덕였지만

사실 무슨 말을 했는지 알지 못했다

너는 웃고 또 머리를 쓰다듬어 줬다

그리곤 마치 내가 기억을 못 할거라고 생각했는지

그대로 이상한 말을 했다

네가 그리울거라고

중얼거리고

나에게 작별인사 하나 없이 공기중으로 사라져 버렸다

붉은 비는 그쳐버렸다

난 아직도 네가 보고싶어 밤 마다 울고 있다

잠을 자도 항상 깨어나기도 전에 네가 눈 앞에 아른거린다

어제 붉은 비가 다시 내렸다

내 목소리가 쉬어버리고

난 아직도 본 적 없는 네 얼굴을 상상속에 그리며 매달렸다

나에게 사랑해라고는 말한 적 없는

말하지 못한 네게

난

소리지르듯 다그쳤다

나는 너를.

이제 난 너를 탓하고 붉은 비를 회상하며 마취를 하지만

존재하지 않을 수도 있는 너를 아직도 그리워한다

하지만 대부분 무서워서


붉은비가 내릴 때

난 붉은 비에 색소를 타고 우산을 핀다

걷는다

속수무책으로 내리는 비는 우산으로 다 피할 수 없는 마련

피부속에 스며든 파란 비는 수분공급으로 변한다

눈물은 다시 붉은 빛으로.


내 눈은 네 그리움을 담고있다

내 소원을 베고 있다

넘쳐 흐를때 나는 조용히 그릇에 담아

너를 보고있다 네 마음을 흐르듯 느끼면서 마시면서

몸안속 깊이 채우면서 한 존재가 되어

cuz all a sudden I want to introduce myself

So! The school life is quite exciting
Not. it used to be like at least
proffessional in a way cuz I really
concerntrated in class but like now?

I'm just over it and I want to quit school
not that I'm failing anything I'm actually
doing well in all my subjects

I top in French ab initio and psych
and good as usual in maths science

i'm one of those lucky people who
just naturally do good compared to
How much effort I put in :-)

I don't study much in fact I spend
a lot of time eating mainly talking
Yess I'm a chatty person when around
people that I know really well
but I'm not that optimistic at all
I suffer deeply with depression....

for past of my life I've been trying
soooooo hard to be what Korean people
call 'the one' and I dreamt things that
is apparently NOT me.

my parents say that I'm smart
but I never actually enjoyed studying
cuz it's not part of my life
and I don't give a crap of it

so yeah I feel so gay
cuz I'm nothing special than others

I'm just who's among others
cool? no... QAHS isn't cool

LOL at my identity.

cuz of this lovely feeling and a bit of korean talk

-this picture might be a bit random but i think it goes absolutely great with the topic that i am going to talk about right now. up to individuals and how they interpret it. anyway. enjoy.-

i was going through my storage cabinet thing

and it was pretty interesting because i found this card

that i got from my friends in A.B Paterson College

it was like a farewell card that they gave me

just before my last day of school? :-) ahh... Jess and Steph...

my asian buddies!!

they were really nice to me and we had LOTS of fun

we were always like 'yep asian rules!!' even though

they weren't like...asian asian like me.... you know...

who you call 'asian' by their physical appearance however, not mentally??

anyway we always talked about how thai rules

(i love thai food! <3<3<3)btw Jess is thai.

had SOOOOOOOO much fun. these guys rock the world! kkk

well yeah they were really upset when i told them that i'm leaving

especially to a freshly built collaborated school that apparently only nerds go.

and yet Jess was quite smart as well! YEHHH asian!!..not as hard core as me though

anyway... the card... absolutely touchy.... they wrote really nice

words about me... said that they'll miss me so much

and how they love me (soooo nice to feel loved)

they said that i'm one of the most prettiest person they ever met

and how i'm cool and cute....arghh very nice...not sure of the cute part. but.

these girls were amazing... like they totally shifted my perception of views

before i never used to care about friends. i was never good with

relationships at the first place.

i got hurt a lot when i was around with koreans because they're all like

mean....very self-centred and always backstabbing...jealous..and stuff

they always follow me and pretend that they're sooo cool

act sooo jjijil-e? like.. CHAV!! have this massive prejudice

especially the DEATH STARES!!! friken creeps the hell out of me.

sometimes koreans can be really nice. more because they are korean.

because they speak the same language??

but as you get to know them from inside out?

very likely to be revealed as NOT SO GOOD.

i think its because they live in an absolute intense competitive society

where they have to eat each other up in order to survive

so im kinda lucky to be here i guessand because i know how

western people think..because i can easily compare how

koreans and australians are.

and i try to be centred in the middle..

not too australian because they're slow

not too korean because they're cunning

ahhhh.. so many thoughts rushing through my head.

just sleep. lets sleep.

몰라

그냥 죽을 것만 같이 나를 감싸오는 고독

속에서 또 전율을 느껴 감전되었어 우리는.

더 깊게 눈감고 침대에 누워 영혼과 육체는 분리되고

꿈속의 너는 벙어리가 되어 사라져 나를 녹여

분쇄된 너와 나는 하나가 되어 네 머리칼은 내 얼굴을 감싸와

찌르다 못해 파고들어와 날카롭게 베어 상처가 나

피가 흐르는 것같아. 생채기가 가득해 괴물이 된 것 같아

성형을 해. 가질 수 없는 것에 분노를 품어 앙심에

살인을 해 합리화하곤 뒤 돌아 집으로 돌아가

누워서 잠을 청해 근데 일어나지를 않아 짜증이 나

카인과 아벨처럼 아둥바둥 할퀴고 싶어 안달이 나

책을 덮고 일어서 너와 내 사진을 벽에 걸어 못은 부실해

떨어져 산산조각 나기를. 제발 좀 꺼져버리길 빌어

촛불은 나가고 나는 깜깜한 밤을 느껴 온몸으로

얼굴을 못봐 그 사진도 못봐 너도 못봐.

사랑스러운 밤이야

잔인한 냄새가 나는. 치가 떨리는 즐거움에 비친

공포

아닌

시체. 실체

Cuz of school life

yeh I haven't been blogging for
More than a week??

I was so tired because of school
and because our school friken
encourages what they call 'hi tech'
what. using the stupid laptop for
every lesson?? I hate it so much!!

I used to love computer
like I was a complete addict
but now thanks to QAHS it
totally put me offf

With 6 hrs of intense computer everyday
Is like .. hell on earth!! I feel so radiated
and like .. it sucks
and i've been trying to be a bit productive
Nowdays but it really is fragile :-((

School is okay
like usual. but not too hard core so that's
a relief

but.. kind of sadly my depression revisited me
like usual. it always comes and goes
leaves me with the dread of unconsciousness

and i want to just
fall
and

fall.

i was thinking about this depression thing
since when did i start getting depressed?
...like when a was a junior
12?

and thats why people say i always look too old
because i think of stupid things like the world
the philosophy.

i lost my innocence
i shouldve kept my childish thoughts

thanks to my depression
im already a grown up.
- like any other adults.

too mature.

cuz of my laptop

mwahh laptop!!

is so crap

its this stupid
chinese brand called 'lenovo'??

it cost my dad heaps

probs around $2500?

and what?? i never saw a computer

that crashes more than 10 times in 2minutes!!

it soooo doesnt worth it

but i had to get it for school

cuz we cant use anything else than this one
apparently its.....what hi-tech??

rubbish!!

lol Do you see my hatred??

if so.....

buy me a macbook!! please!! i beg you

cuz of this ssssong

so i have this comparative essay due tomoro
and you know what?? haha i havent started!
and my family has this dinner

so yeah i was like wtf what am i gonna do
but like usual i dont panic
so im just going to do it like at 4 today? haha
dont care! kkk

so yeah basically i just did youtube
from 7am haha...........not funny

and i searched for the piano cover of 'second run'
original sound track from a korean online game called talesweaver
it was arranged by a guy called nam gung min
its kinda new age....its really magical and like... fantasy?
revery?



anyway i totally LOVE this song
its beautiful!!! <3

i also have this favvv cover of 'La La La' by Se7en
its quite old but its amazing
and i just LOVE it

it was played so nicely



Why can't i be like that?
i gotta practice by piano!!!!
a light of inspiration ^ ^

cuz of i'm tired and i hate school but love french

arghh i hated school today
so sucky
and im so tired

but i really do love french
its my best subject
and we learn so much
its like going to 학원

everythings pretty much interesting
when it comes to french
i love france

i think by the end of grade 12
i'm going to be like...fruent in french
thats one of my goals

으쌰ㅑㅑ



dont wanna go to school!

cuz of the super mean busdriver

okay I just got on the bus
and friken hell the bus driver is
sooooo mean !!

I said I'm going to helensvale
because when I say arundel
most of the times they get confused

And the lady is like
helensvale or helensvale station?
so I said helensvale because
arundel is apart of helensvale

and then I realized that she charged me wrong
Told her that it's actually the station
and she got furious
friken going insane
and I just stood there like dumb
I apologised
and she's like 'distinguish kid!!'
in a really stingy voice

Soooo mean
People can make mistake!
arghh
:-((

cuz of the sports day

i went to school today
I really didn't want to go
because I was still in the holiday mode
and it was too short! like WTF?
11days?? god kill me :-(

and plus it was sports day
Eww sun, sweat...

the forecast said it was going to
Rain
but it didn't!!

so I had to drag myself to school
with my sports uniform
and all my concerns.

but actually it wasn't as bad
as I expected.
it was quite fun
and the girls were really nice
they were all originally from benowa
and I love them because they're
all like.... smart kind and everything

and it was undercover
it wasn't too much of running
and I managed to play adequately so..
COOL

my arms are all bruised
but I feel proud of the way I played
I think volleyballs fun
LOVE<3

I'm fit now!!

cuz of words

밤새 방안엔 눈이 많이 쌓였어
난 자장가에 잠을 깨어
눈을 떴지만
넌 이미 없었어

밤새 마당엔 새가 많이 죽었어
난 종이돈 몇장을 쥐고
전화를 걸어
천국을 주문했어

노래는 반쯤 쓰다 참지 못하고 태워버렸어
나는 재를 주워 담아 술과 얼음과 마셔버렸어
오 미안 오 이제 작별 인사를 해야지
내 마음을 닫을 시간이야

밤새 방안엔 꽃이 많이 피었어
난 종이돈 몇장을 쥐고
전화를 걸어
끊어 버렸어

밤새 술잔엔 눈물이 많이 고였어
넌 내게 거절해달라고 애원했지만
난 끝내 거절했어

노래는 반쯤 쓰다 참지 못하고 태워버렸어
나는 재를 주워 담아 술과 얼음과 마셔버렸어
오 미안 오 이제 작별 인사를 해야지
내 마음을 닫을 시간이야

its time to close my mind
its time to close
its time to close my mind
its time to close

노래는 반쯤 쓰다 참지 못하고 태워버렸어
나는 재를 주워 담아 술과 얼음과 마셔버렸어
오 미안 오 이제 작별 인사를 해야지
내 마음을 닫을 시간이야

cuz of Jen's birthday and funny vid

so it was my friend Jennifers birthday
and i had no clue of what to give her
went to southport
and so coincidently 'michelles patisserie' opened there
i ran there and fetched this marble cake thingy
looked nice
but i overcame the temptation to eat
and gave it to her

it was like a party thingy
but more of social gathering
all koreans though

it was quite funny and
not too ackward
i worried a lot because of that
but it was okay so yeah

then we watched a movie called 'knowing'
she paid all 10?? of us
i felt bad but yeah you know
its like what bday people do....
and thats why we bring presents along
so its kinda equal??

well the movie was like scary
but not like... a ghost movie
it was about the worlds end and how this guy
tries to stop it from coming

and this movie had the
most suckiest ending ever.
EVER

eww i still can feel it
disgusting!!

oh yeah
and we went to 노래방
for 2hrs and 보너스+20min
i thought i was going to pass out
cuz it was stuffy
and like....no 분위기

(i know i went to 노래방 yesterday....too)

but the whole gathering party thing was fun i guess
i liked it

ohhh and i came across this funny vid
well not really hilarious exactly
but i guess ....
probs just a slight grin??

i typed in 'need more room' in google
cuz i was curious about what will come up
and yeah there was no sign of my blog
but instead there was this vid
check it out

Need More Room???? - Funny blooper videos are here

yeah this is what i mean man!!!
need more room? :-)

'그저 웃지요'
lol love the life

cuz of this book called blindness and random talks

im up to reading recently
i loved book since i was a kid
i used to just read for days and days
but now i really dont read that often because

i got older
i started to think about stuffs
spend days just daydreaming
and being sad

a lot of the times i do my school work
pretty gay it takes away my time to read
and gain

but since its holidays
i have spared some time to read
and so im reading a book called
'BLINDNESS'
by JOSE SARAMAGO

its also called 눈먼자들의 도시 in korean
but since im in australia and theres no way i could get
that translated version shipped here
im just reading it in english

its not too bad
i can understand most of it so its good

apparently its made into a movie as well
but i havent seen it
and movie might spoil it so.....

anyway this books quite good so far
its really philosophical and like... complexed
and thats what i like about
it contains meaning
and actually describes interesting aspects of the society
and the government and how its shaped
how peoples' mind develops when they're put in to an
unexpected situation

very psychological

yet fictional

LOVE BOOKS <3<3<3

the thing about korean kids are that

they dont READ

instead they just go off to play stupid computer games
or like smoke around, wagging 학원 and being a rabble

not to stereotype in a bad way..but still they spend their
time so unproductively

not even studying

and then they start crying when they stuff up their exams

and blame on stuffs that dont even make sense
what a 모순

all they think about is teen life
their faces their bodies their popularity
and their friendship!

but the truth is that their friendship is like a thin layer of ice
so fragile
sooooo CHANGEABLE

on the other hand there are some kids that actually are switched on
they work crazily
aim for the highest goals

and im proud of them
because those are the ones
that make difference

and those are who out to the broader world
and typify about koreans
that they are smart
and
trustworthy

i love my country

and books......

so random

talk

cuz of my luxurious end of term report. NOT

my report for term 1 on QAHS came
i got adequate grades but i really don't care
its funny cuz i care about the grades when i get it at school
but when it's like the mail? i don't even pay attention to it
strange?!:-)

but i was quite upset because my dad didn't
let me see it first
i think that's super rude because i worked hard
and i deserve at least that sort of respect
he knows that i stayed up so many nights for it
and it's my personal achievement
i NEED to see it first!!!

i was angry and upset
i still am i think
next time i'm gonna snatch it
and will see it first before ANYONE

SHOW.
SOME
MANNER
&
RESPECT

cuz of this fav book!!

so this is a booked called 'flipped'(obviously) written by Wendlin Van Draanen
i don't really know when this book was published...

well anyway i read it first in korean (translated)
and i really liked it a LOT.
i even cried because it so touchy!!
i recommended to my sister to read it, and she did
but she didn't really find the book interesting nor sad at all.
apparently for her, it was boring?? and childish??

i guess everybody has different opinion and their own perception.
though i don't really care cuz i liked it
and thats whats important in life isnt it?
people might think of what others will think but
who gives a crap? at the end, you'll always be by yourself

you're born alone after being trapped alone in your moms tummy
for 10months, and you die alone too
you can never share you feelings completely with others
they can understand you, but they cant be you.

so back to the book
i love it because its set in a way like
a chapter for this character, and then the next ones for
the another character

its really cool because you get to see two different characters
view for one incident. it contrasts how ones perception of values
can be so different

very interesting and clever

and thats why i couldn't get over it and had to
go on a search to find the original text!
i NEEDED it!!

this cover is the korean translation for the identical book
i like the english one because its so much more simple
but well yeah 'dont judge books by its cover' right? :-)

anyway i think its really an irony for a same book
by the same author can be soooo different just by the language.
translation
really
loses
it

well.
its like hard to explain
the sentence has the same meaning, but the atmosphere
and the feels conveyed in it is really different
im sure everybody agrees here
it doesnt have to be a russian rhyme poem to notice this
clearly the whole feeling and the magic of words are different
it just is

oh and also i have more obssesion of this book cuz
of this ferocious girl that who-i-cant-name.
she was once kinda sort of like a friend to me
and i lent it to her because i was being nice and wanted to share
and she never gave it back to me

she irresponsibly said 'i dont remember i dont know where i put it'
and just put me down...................... arghh:-(
then i just didnt like her at all
so i never talked to her again

i still feel this humangous anger whenever i think of her
because that book was mine
because it was my favvvv book
because it was in korean and im in australia (not going back there 'til grads)
because .........its just not right!!!!

she shouldve paid me
at leat say sorry?
:-((( gosh it really proves what kind of person she is
sucker

well anyway
this books friken amazing
LOVE <3

:-)

cuz of i wannabe a pop artist

andy warhol
everybody know him for his pop art
he is friken fascinating


and this is me
trying to make myself an artist as well
well..10minute 'bungae'

who cares?

i got confidence

what do i get to lose?

i'm GOING for it!


OMG!!!!

chav...:-)

cuz of this tight tablo

i was youtubing to pleasure myself
because i was soooooo bored

and came across this wonderrrr-ful
not really.

funny

well and it was interesting!

i love tablo (not like love love)and this vid gave me a good laugh :-)

but now days..everytime i see tablo
he reminds me of kanghyejung..his lover??
she's a quite famous actor in korea
but they really dont match well!!!

it's justtttttttttt nottttttttt on!!

but yeah... so check this vid out



hilarious
and amazingggg

want to rhyme like that

i'm so bad at english friken..aussie pronunciation

i mean...this guys friken from stanford uni!

i'm sooooooooooooo CHAV

this vid is also funny
it's tablo teaching his group member english
lol love him



<3<3<3 you feel my love? haha tablo is for the real man!!

Maintenant, en vacance!!

ohhh I'm on vacance!
in gold coast
which is in Australia
my home
bwraaack.

finally the end of the first term in QAHS
dreadfully wanted holiday
however. just for a week

RIDICULOUS

and more....essays to write
while cruising at home
with air conditioner

i'm so domestic!!
ewwww yuck

but surely not going to worry
bout it til the night before la rentree
meh as if I'll care

Let's go back to sleep now :-)

cuz my teeth hurts :- ( oww

awwy my teeth hurts a lot
and i am very annoyed

i got this elastic thing to wear on my braces
and it's like literally killing my jaws

also i changed my wire to the thickest one so it's like
friggen extra tight squishing my teeth

feel like if my whole mouth is going to pop out
and be

RIPPED.


every time i open my mouth
the elastic bounces and i feel like

if i'm a spring going

boing

boing

rather like a kangaroo.


and i think im gaining weight
like perhaps a lot
because i just pig out
excusing myself going 'i need to grow a bit!:-)'


damn.........would i grow though?
want to be at least 170!!!!
but i know..........

i think i stopped
damn crap :-(

cuz of my love to amelie nothomb

say hi to my 'not very catchy looking' book!!
it's written by amelie nothomb!! haha :-)
she's like really famous in korea
but i only came cross her few weeks ago kk

in 'naver jisik in'? they recommended her books
so i went on a search trying to find some of her books
and i got this 'antechrista' from the local library!
i LOVE this library!<33 it's free and very useful!

well...when i first read this book i was like... Wa wa wawat?
but i kinda got in to it after a while..and it was really good!
it's written with simple english(important to meeeee)
but it still was so down to earth and philosophical<33
i love those books that have heavy meaning
cuz it questions me and changes my perception
of the way i view things and behaviour towards it

i just love it when i have time to read<3
SO MUCH GAINS OUT OF IT!!!

lol yeah i only have a day more to go
and it's holidays~~~~~~

i'm freeeeeeeee to read bookssssssssss:-)*

cuz i'm so upset :-(

because of my damn chem teacher
now i have a lovely
yet disgusting
"0" for my extended essay design

Oh how exciting seriously.
not.

what does she want from me?
i suffered a LOT because of the stupid
experiment design that I DO NOT CARE and then
JUST BECAUSE my internet didn't work
she is like
ripping my whole...what more than 48hr work?

this is driving me insane and i am sooooooooo
not not not not not going to do
anything that she wants me to do now

she lost me bad

seeya laterz crooky
maybe back in a trillion years time
but
never
for
now.

arghhhhhhhhhhh

cuz i feel like writing

hello
i felt like
writing stuffs...

im really excited that
i have a blog
for myself now : )
yipeee <3

arghhh gosh i just remembered
of course
im going to school tomorrow!

lovellly!
NOT.

i really dont want to study stuffs
that i really dont give a damn

but i have to i guess
cuz im such a nerd
and
i would like to be
a
nerd
not a
bobodoll.

very simple
yet,
philosophical!

c'est formidable!
Oui?

to start

okay.. well this is I-Ji

im still a student in high school (yeah..)

moreover, im asian LIVING in australia

whoa i made this blog to become a bit more social

coz i lack confidence and life

im planning to become someone

perhaps better than i am

now.

so lets hold hands

and run around like

a bobodoll

yay : )