fatigue

It's raining quite nicely
and I feel that I could do everything
I feel that I could go back in time
or jump across time

Most times I daydream about things that have no meaning
like going back to korea or living in africa
then it brings me back to this weird feeling
that i am nobody

I feel lost and alienated
as if I'm conered forever
maybe this is how daul felt when she left
being trapped in this eternal loneliness

I always thought that i could be the one
t.h.e. o.n.e

but I know I'm not.

I was never born to be.

I never will be.

What is it that makes life so precious?
what's left here. futility?

warmth? love? hope?
........I give up