사랑해

사랑해
사랑해

이 거지 같은 말

정말 거지 같군

거지야 거지

내게는 너무나도 거지 같은 말이군
외롭다 외롭다 외롭다

거지들은 외치지
그 세글자는 참 거지같군 ㅎ

난 아직도 널 그리면서 거지같다고 말해
더러워
아직도 사랑한다는게
잊을 수 없다는게
거지같은 그 말이 생각나서.

사랑해 이지야

거지같은 말이네.

나는 눈을 떴지

눈을 떴지
너와 내가 같은 곳을 보고 있지 않다는 사실에
힘들어 울기도 했지만,
결국에 너와 나는 아니였다는 것을 알기에
나는 눈을 떴지

아픈만큼 성숙해지는 것일까
아님 성숙해지기 위해 아픈 것 일까
상관없이 둘 다 아픈 것은 변함이 없겠지.

마지막 인사를 나누고
행복했다고 말하고
친구로 지내자고 말도 되지 않는 말을 뱉고
다음 날 울고
새벽에 아픈 꿈에 시달리고

잊자고 최면을 걸고
허덕이며 다시 일어나고, 울고

혹시 나와 같은 마음일지
나를 생각하는지 나를 그리는지
아직도 나를 사랑하는지
묻고 싶다고 속으로 끊임없이 말하고.

I always find it so hard to let things go
I don't accept I cry I dream of stupid things
In hope to runaway from reality
from what I need to see and acquiesce.

I guess love is like the same afterall
Let time heal

Was it love or was it nof,
I feel sick of love

........

hurt hurt hurt
hurt hurt hurt

i'll let things go.

just let the time heal,
hopefully

Holidays

Holidays!
well...2weeks but still. i needed it badly.
but, i still have my ToK essay, Maths IA, EE to do
which is pretty much :-( because I want to relax
anyway,

I'm into fragrances and perfumes right now
I LOVE them I love collecting perfumes cos it's good
I've got like....5 right now? But, I'm planning to get more.
I bought davidoff cool water because it was on sale couple of days ago
and i like it!! It's obviously a classic, but i still think it's really refreshing and good.
Also, I bought my friend CK eternity moment 30ml one because it smelt good and was cheap.
I really liked that one....but it's out of my hands now :-(
I didn't really like her attitude though....she was like whats this -0-
while all the other girls were like OMG it smells really good !!!
whatever. it was cheap.

anyway...so i'm gonna play a bit of game and then back on track with my maths IA
I want to get things done quickly so that I can relax and do what i want to do.

put a death bed on a G4P

so.
here i am
with stomach virus

couldnt go to school on a day of my G4P
which would normally mean
no IB Diploma
no Sciences

now if the school is flexible enough
or i could go back in time
i might be able to get my diploma
i MIGHT.

7 minutes

7 minutes and done
it's so shit